Dear Scarlet,
I didn’t plan on being a mother when I was 19. If my life were a story, that’s not a chapter I would have willingly written. I didn’t pick this, but I would never ever change it. It’s not a part of my story I would even consider editing. I have absolutely no idea who I would be without you or what I would be doing. I was selfish before we met, I was a bratty kid. You turned me into a woman. You taught me about patience and gratitude. Your father and I probably would have never made an honest effort to stay together if you weren’t in the picture, and I’m so glad that we did. I had a lot of amazing years with him, and that’s on you. I learned so much from our marriage. His decision to join the Air Force for you moved us to Oklahoma where we met some of the most genuine and quality people I’ve ever had in my life. I can’t express how excited I am that they’re a part of your life as well. We wouldn’t know them if it weren’t for you. You’ve been there with me through everything, I’ve known you my entire adult life. We grow together. We learn together. We face the ugly and experience the amazing parts of life together. You’re my constant. My only constant. You’re a part of me, like a baby kangaroo in my pouch. I’ll protect you. I’ll keep you company. I’ll comfort you. I don’t know where I’d be without you, Scarlet, but I’m so so happy not to be there. Of all the humans in all the worlds, I’m incredibly grateful that you’re the one who I get to call my daughter. I love you. - Mom
Beautiful.
The journey of rediscovering who I am. Purging the bad and preserving the good. But it is not always black and white. Sorting though the gray is what seems to be the hardest.
